More journal excerpts

Today I just finished the reading the journal that I previously wrote about. Here are more choice tidbits. Please keep in mind that I am using all the same spelling and such as was in my journal. More authentic, you know.

June 30, 2000 (16 years old now)
Preface: I was at the God and Country Rally in Nampa with my mom and 3 younger brothers.
"At the Rally my family was being embarrassing so I mostly walked behind them."
I can't think of what would have been so embarrassing that I had to disassociate myself with them while we were walking around the park. Oh well.

July 31, 2000
"When Jason was at Scout Camp for a week their was no fighting or anything in the house. It was also clean."
Jason, my brother who is 2 years younger than me, and I didn't get along for a lot of our teenage years. But, even though we get along now, I will attest to the truthful bit in the cleaner house without him. :)

Sept. 25, 2000
Preface: I had been writing and speculating about my future husband and lamenting all the years that I wasn't knowing him.
"I bet that in a year or so, I will look at these pages and embarras myself because of the weird things I write. I have done it before."
Well at least I KNEW I was weird.

Nov. 14, 2000
I was writing about hanging out and talking with my older brother and sister and cousin Jeremy.
"It was fun. Although, I mostly just listened. That's what I do. If I talk to much I always end up embarrasing myself. No need for that. I'm not cool enough for them. Steph and Chris are kinda cool. (Now that they're gone.)"
My view on talking remains true to this day! :) Oh, and my siblings were both living far away from home at this point. Hence the, "now that they're gone" part.

January 2, 2001
"Hello. Chris and Stephanie came back for Christmas around the 11th. The first few days they're here it's kind of exciting and fun, cause I geuss I unconciously missed them, but after awhile, they are the same annoying, mean sibling they were before they left. . . . They just put off the impression that they're better then me. They say it too. 'Your so immature,' 'you are so defencive and take everything the wrong way.' 'your paranoid.' Oh yeah, they're fun to have around."
I hope you don't mind me posting this Stephanie. Notice the elipses? I did edit. So, just focus on the fact that I geuss I missed you when I was sleeping. Haha!

January 14, 2001
"I wasn't sad or anything when Stephanie and Chris left. It's kind of like when reletives visit, you're happy they come, but after awhile you want things back to normal. Thats how it was when they left."

January 14, 2001
"Mom and Dad are bugging me and snooping in my journal and trying to sneak peaks at my heart on th front page."
I do believe that it was when I was right there. They were doing specifically to raise a reaction. All in fun, all in fun. But boy did I need to protect that heart!