May 5 2001
Ah, my best friend growing up, Laurie. Pretty and flirty and fun. And then me. Plain and shy. *sigh*
"All the guys I originally like, like Laurie! Every single one! That she knows anyway. Just once I would like a guy come to me instead of Laurie. It doesn’t even have to be instead, it could be just if a guy like me. I need a pity party because no guys like me: Never been kissed, never been on a date, never even been flirted with! What’s up with that? Am I that ugly."
May 6, 2001
"Today in church we had a lesson about writing in your journal. She said it was good for posterity. I never thought I would have great great Grandchildren reading about me. I am not a pioneer. My journal is so boring. It’s only about trips to Utah basically. Plus, half the stuff I write is so embarrassingly ridiculous. If I go back and read things I realize how stupid I was when I was younger. In a couple of years I’ll read about my 16 yr. old life and realize how stupid I am now. Oh well."
May 20, 2001
"The guys were kind of cute. Shh, don’t tell mom, one of them had a tattoo, and she would think me evil if I thought someone was cute with a tattoo."
Hah! Mom, do you think I'm evil? Tee hee. Also, pretty much every guy I saw was potentially cute. These ones made the cut because I thought I was the object of some looks and attention from them. :)
May 27. 2001
I fell in love with Heath Ledger when I watched A Knights Tale. Loved the movie, loved the actor. This was my first honest to goodness movie crush and I looked up pictures of him on the internet and read articles about him in magazines and so forth.
"I memorized his bio. Not on purpose. I only read through it, like, twice. If only I were this interested in school. I could learn lots more."
Then a little later I have this to say.
"I hope my future husband never reads this. He would know how crazy I am and then divorce me. I wouldn’t want that."
2 weeks ago